For a change I’m going to use real names. This should be interesting.
Up Up and Away……………….is a term I use for a fantastical imaginative jump ahead into the future.
My husband goes Up Up and Away when he’s had a great day. Every thing falls into place at work. He sails through all the lights on the way home. He stops for gas and the blinking sign over the cash register tells him that the Mega Millions is paying out Mega Millions that night! He buys a ticket because how can he not win today of all days?
During dinner he figures out how much he’ll keep. Who he’ll give the rest away to. He dreams of what his children would like best. Perhaps, Andy would be complete if he owned and ran his own gaming store. Chrissy would really enjoy owning her own theater. I hope she doesn’t get so caught up in the running of the theater that she forgets to play a great part herself now and then. We dream realistically but really big over the chicken and baked potatoes.
We’re kind of surprised when we don’t even get one number on that lottery ticket right.
I was on Facebook one morning. My page asked me “What’s on your mind?” like it does every day. That day I answered at length. I wrote a story about being a little girl refusing to lie in the confessional. I was swept back in time. I wrote of growing up on Columbus Street in Manchester, Connecticut.
I got it just right. I don’t applaud myself very often. But, that story remains one of my very favorites and it was my first. I posted it onto the Grew Up In Manchester Facebook page. The crowd went wild.
I couldn’t keep up with the comments. Unlike most of the internet? The comments were 100% positive. No negative Nellies that sit around in their underwear causing trouble on the computer bothered reading or commenting on my story. Nice people read it. Nice people responded.
I continued to write my stories. They’d been building up inside of me for a long while. It was time to let them spill. They spilled and spilled and spilled.
My daughter Chrissy called me from her home in Portland, Oregon.
“Ma! Are you writing a book? Are you writing a book and putting it up on Facebook? What are you doing? Your stories are wonderful but you’re just sending them out into cyberspace where anyone can grab one and claim it is theirs. You have to be more careful. And, while I find your stories very nostalgic and sweet…………well, where is the crazy? You need to put more of the crazy in.” she said very quickly.
Chrissy was kind of pooping on my parade. We’re both adults at the same time now. She is more realistic and perhaps more aware of the deviousness of the world around us. My life perhaps insulates me to the kind of crap she has to deal with every day in her adulthood.
“I’m just having fun. I’m not writing a book. You want to call it a book? And, I’ll stop writing. Who the hell will steal my stories? Someone would really steal my stories? And, if you don’t like nostalgic and sweet stop reading. I don’t know much about crazy.” I grunted at her over the phone.
I hate it when Chrissy is all grown up and makes me feel like I’m still twelve. I get all pouty and crabby and I cut a conversation short. The UPS man is at the door. Bye. Dial tone.
I didn’t hang up quickly this time.
I know I’m behind the times. I still have an old flip phone. I panic when it actually rings because so few people have my number. When I am out and about and doing my thing? I don’t want to talk to you. I don’t give you my cell phone number because I don’t want you interrupting me while I pick out pickles at the grocery store.
I sat in my computer chair half listening to her while I read comments on my latest story.
I interrupted her. “Ooo! Listen to this one. Hot off the presses. My mother is 92 and has lived her whole life in Manchester. I read your stories out loud to her every night after dinner. Your memories makes her remember her own. Never stop writing.” I read to my daughter.
The phone got quiet. Hello? You still there?
“How many comments does this story have on it?” she asked quietly.
“Um……………let’s see. The story was posted two hours ago and it has thirty two comments.” I answered.
This was in the early days when people responded rather than hit the like button.
The phone got quiet again.
“Jesus! Ma! Do you realize what you have here? People are dying for the nostalgia of your childhood. You have got to do something. I suggest you at least stop with the facebook writing. You have to start a blog. Move your stories onto a blog. That way you can prove that you wrote them at a certain time. Thirty two comments in two hours? Dear, God!” she yelled over the phone line.
“What’s a blog?” I asked.
She howled at her ceiling all the way out there in Portland, Oregon. It’s nice to know I can drive my daughter as nuts as my mother drove me. It’s inherited. I wasn’t even trying all that hard.
She sent me to WordPress.com . She told me it would be easy and it was. The problem is I got so busy writing new stories it took me three weeks to find the time to go and move my older stories over. To keep them safe. I stayed up really late one night doing that. I went to bed at three am and I said “Phew!”.
You story thieves, you! You have been thwarted!
One of my stories really impressed my daughter. It made her miss her grand parent’s house on Columbus Street. If any one in this world loved every corner of that little white house it was my daughter.
She would Up Up and Away years ago fantasizing about how she would redo that house if she owned it. She would never live in Ct. again. But, that house? She loved it and it was almost worth moving to the East Coast for.
The story hit her nostalgia bone. She went UP UP and Away imagining my book sales some day. The book would be so popular a movie would be made. It would be a lot like Ralphie and his BB Gun in The Christmas Story. She would have to buy the Columbus Street house before some movie producer got his hands on it and turned it into a weird little museum.
“So, what actress will play you at age 30?” she asked. “The same actress can double as Ellie at that age. You looked a lot alike at thirty.”
I thought about it for a little too long I suppose. I mean there are only six actresses in Hollywood ,right? They get used over and over again. No one else is ever given a chance. They’re all either too young, too blonde or they need to just eat a hamburger. Or, a couple dozen hamburgers along with a large order of fries.
“Jesus! Ma! This is an easy one! I am a freaking actress after all and I look just like you!” she said in exasperation. I was messing with her fantasy game.
“I suppose I’ll allow you to audition. But, you’ll have to ace it. No nepotism. It’s just not fair.” I said as I laughed like hell.
I worked the candy store this Sunday. It was a beautiful spring day and lots of people were out and about. I had lots to get done but I waited on a lot of people. Lots of little kids in a candy store of all ages.
My friend Winnie stopped by for a short visit right after I opened. She leaned in and told me how much she loves reading my stories. She thinks I have found my passion. She waved her hands in front of her and she got a little dramatic.
“Think of it. On the Home Made Theater stage. I envision the play you’ve written based on your stories. Imagine Little Darlene on the stage. Your parents Ralph and Ellie. You can give the world a play about an actual functioning family.” she said in awe of her own idea.
“Well, that would be unique. A play about a functioning family unit. People don’t bother to write those.” I said.
The theater had just done Cat on a Hot Tin Roof. Functioning family? Not. Come to think of it? Why does all drama have to come from some one wailing “Oh, Mama! You never really loved me and that is why I have so fucked up my life!” Imagine a really bad southern accent and a torn white gauzy dress. The actress’s hair is artfully messy. She takes a big swig of whiskey right out of the bottle and throws the empty at Mama.
Yeah, I’m sick of those plays too.
My, God! I don’t know if I have a play in me but it’s something to think about. I imagine my mother wailing at me from heaven. “Dear, God, No! I don’t want everyone knowing my business. Kill me. Just, kill me now.”
She was a private person. She was dramatic.
I closed the candy store six hours later with the help of a young friend. She’s learning the ropes so she can work the store once in a while herself.
Shannon had been too tired out for our regular Friday night dinner date. I am an orphan on Friday nights because my men go out to play cards. Shannon and I are dinner and wine buddies. Instead of our Friday night dinner we were going out on the town after the candy store closed on Sunday.
We found ourselves in a restaurant where you could actually hear each other speak. It was a nice day and most people that had thought to wear a sweater were out on the patio. We chose inside.
We caught up on the news from the past few weeks. I scolded her about a few things I suppose. I am almost 30 years older than she is. She is my friend but I do go all Mama on her once in a while. She doesn’t seem to mind.
“I love you, Dar!.” she says. And I guess she does. Because, she keeps coming back for more.
I told her of Winnie’s idea of me writing a Grew Up On Columbus Street play. She thought it was a marvelous idea.
“Who would play your mother?” she asked. “Ooo, ooo! I know! Winnie is the best actress any of us know. Winnie should play your mother.”
Up Up and Away!
“Hmmmmm.” I thought. I was now a casting director of a play that might never be written.
“Yes, you’re right about Winnie being the finest actress we know. But, no. She is not right as my mother. She’s too small. I’m not seeing it. But, you know? We’ll see at auditions. A good actress can pull off any kind of character.” I said as I sipped my two ounce ten dollar chardonnay.
I chewed my cole slaw. You know who Winnie would be perfect as? I thought. My best friend’s mother. She was sweet and kind and she has the right look. I would have to put her into a dark short wig though. I had already decided to stay true to how the people of my life actually looked. Hmmm. Winnie deserves some great scenes. I was going to have to write some more stories about my times in my best friend’s house.
Up Up and Away!
On the way home I thought about the casting of my mother in a play that hasn’t been written yet.
Dawn! Dawn might be absolutely perfect as my mother. Dawn is forceful and commanding. Yet, she can get gentle and kind. Hmmm. I pictured Dawn in a dark auburn wig yelling at little Darlene.
“Why are you ten minutes late? Look me in the eye! Remember! Don’t bother lying to me! I can read you like a book!” Ellie Dawn yelled in my head.
Dawn wiping her hands onto a half apron. With a dish towel over her shoulder. Dawn pretending to look out the little kitchen window. Dawn yelling “If you fall out of that frigging apple tree and break your neck? I’m going to come out there and kill you myself!” And ,then she bangs out of the metal screen door. Great exit!
Yes! This will work. Wow! I just have to work on the Worcester accent with her. She’s going to have to practice long and hard on forgetting how to pronounce an R. My name is Dah-leen. The R is silent.
I sat at a light on the way home.
What was I thinking? I know an actress that is pretty accomplished at comic timing. She is superb at learning her lines and being off book early. She doesn’t argue with directors. She looks exactly like my mother. She already can do a Worcester accent. She can kill a fly dead on the wall with a dish towel.
That actress would be me.
Chrissy can fly in to play the younger me and Ellie. She can double. Different wigs.
Hmmmm. Casting Little Darlene. Going to have to be a pretty smart kid to learn all those lines. I could be mouthy back then. Most of these little actresses are going to be too pretty. I didn’t get pretty until I was about fourteen. Little Darlene needs to have a round little face and a smart ass mouth. Will she mind if I cut her hair into bangs and shoulder length? Okay, a wig.
Make a note to call JJ for wigs.
Casting my father is going to be tough. No one will satisfy me. That actor isn’t dignified enough. I don’t like his laugh. No one in this room is good looking enough. Is Ralph Fiennes available? I don’t care how much he costs. He has to melt every female heart in the audience from age 3 to 100. Get me Ralph to play Ralph.
That was easier than I thought it was going to be.
I am obviously going to pre-cast myself to play my mother. No one else can do her justice. Except, maybe Dawn. Nope.
Dawn? You are the only one I will trust to direct this one.
Or! How long am I going to procrastinate before I write this play? How many years will it take to convince the theater to put their money behind my words? I may end up too old to play my own mother.
I wrote it!
I can direct it! My directing debut! It is going to be frigging amazing!
And, Dawn? I wouldn’t trust the character of my mother with any one but you.
Up Up and Away!