I was glancing through the April 4, 2016 People Magazine in the bathroom today. It’s the one with Princess Kate on the front cover. Okay, that doesn’t tell you much. Princess Kate seems to be on every other cover of People Magazine lately. Let’s torture her just like we did Princess Diana. That’s another story.
On page 74 I came across stories of unlikely pet friendships. The photo of a little girl hugging a duck caught my attention. It seems that the five year old girl has had many pets. But, she has really bonded with her pet duck, Snowflake.
Snowflake is your average looking duck. The article is quoted as saying “Snowflake has joined in on everything from family beach days to sledding and even apple picking. He loves car rides.”
Get a grip people.
You take a duck to the beach? You put a duck onto a toboggan and give it a big push? You perch a duck in an apple tree and tell it “let ‘er rip”. You stand underneath with a poncho extended catching all the apples?
You take it on car rides? “Come on everyone! Let’s go get an ice cream. Yeah! Hey? Where is the duck? We can’t enjoy a cone of ice cream without the duck!”
I notice the little girl on her knees hugging the ducky love of her life. She lays her head gently on top of his downy head. One hand holds his neck gently it seems. The other hand has his beak firmly shut between her fingers.
I think that hand laid gently on his neck is ready. It’s ready to grab him around the neck when he goes for her eyes.
That tells me all I need to know. Even this little loving girl does not trust this duck not to try to rip her face off. The duck’s eye stares at the photographer. “As soon as she lets me go, you’re all mine Mr. Cameraman!” his look says.
I don’t trust ducks. They are mean. They are slimy. They are devious. I need more than this photo to tell me that ducks can be nice. I need video. I need hours of video. I can’t be bothered watching hours of video. But, there needs to be proof. And, no editing.
Why is this little girl holding the beak shut with her hand? Because this duck has made her bleed in the past. The hat is probably covering up the scars.
I had a good friend on Columbus Street. Her family never had a pet dog or cat. I always thought that was a little strange. Every house needs kids and pet dander to really be a home.
Then one Easter someone gave her a duckling.
It was cute when it was tiny paddling around a plastic kiddy pool. It was cute waddling around behind her. Cindy was completely enamored. I didn’t really get it. You couldn’t really pick this creature up and get any love out of it. It would struggle every second you held it. It didn’t purr or shed on you. Instead, it pooped all down your shirt.
Still, I figured a duck was better than nothing. And nothing is what she had lived with for many years.
Cindy would spend the night at my house. I lent her my cat. Goldie was good about spreading the love. She would lie on Cindy at night and purr herself silly. Goldie would purr Cindy to sleep just as I was gearing up for us to watch the late movie on TV. I forgave them both. Sometimes a girl just needs to be purred to sleep.
We left Goldie to an outdoor only existence when my family spent our two week vacation in Vermont. She was fed on our roofed porch by a neighbor. She had my old pillow to sleep on. She would make the rounds of the neighborhood looking for love and attention. Everyone knew her. Everyone knew us. They’d pause during their day to give our poor lonely pussy cat a little attention.
The neighbors would count the days down for Goldie. Only six days to go pretty girl! In six days your people will come home.
Cindy’s father was not an animal lover. He told me over and over he absolutely hated cats. I tried to forgive him that. I figured something had happened to him during his childhood to make him hate all felines. Perhaps one had tried to smother him in his crib. That could scar you for a lifetime I suppose.
He told me that the kids had let my cat into his house while I was away on vacation. “I made myself a tuna fish sandwich. I turned away for one minute to find the pickles and your cat was up on the counter. She ate my sandwich. I wanted to put my hands around her throat and choke her but I didn’t. Because, she’s yours.” he said to me one day.
“You didn’t kill my cat because she’s mine? Why?” I said in shock. I meant why would you kill a cat.
“Because! I think the world of you you silly little twit!” he yelled in my face. His face got really red. “Now, get the hell out of my house. You do have a home to go to don’t you?” He was like that. He was one mean SOB most of the time. But, I could charm him around to anything if I put enough time and energy into it.
When he screamed at me to get out of his house? I just went up to him and gave him a kiss on his red, hot face. “Thank you for not killing my cat. I love you too.” I said as he shoved me out the door with a smile on his face. He slammed the door hard behind me to show me he was still the boss. He didn’t want me to think I could buy him with kisses. I could. We both knew that.
Cindy’s duck got bigger. It got meaner. She kept him in a hand made cage against the back of the house. The enclosure was big enough I suppose. But, what an existence. An hour playing with Cindy a day. 23 hours of sitting inside a wire mesh cage held closed by bricks on top.
No wonder Crackers the Duck was so mean.
I would go over to hang out with my friend every day. I had to put up with her duck every day too. He was her first and only pet. I got that. I made allowances for that.
Crackers hated me. Cindy got a kick out of that. Too big a kick. For the first time ever I saw a mean streak in her.
Cindy and Crackers hung out on the back kitchen stoop. She fed him little pieces of toast. He liked his bread toasted. When I mentioned that toasting his bread was a little ridiculous he spread his wings and beat me with them. I know his brain was the size of a pea. Half his brain was taken up with contempt for me.
She had a little plastic golf club and ball. She would bat the ball around the yard and he would chase it for her. I would get wing beaten if I tried to join in the game. She would laugh until she almost peed her shorts.
My eyes would narrow. I’d head down the driveway for my house.
“Oh, get back here!” she’d say. “Are you afraid of a duck? He knows you don’t like him. Show him some love and he’ll love you back!”
I tried to pet him. He turned his vicious beak on my ankles. That really hurt. I’d run. He’d chase me. He’d clamp onto my toes if I hadn’t bothered wearing shoes. I hardly ever bothered with shoes in nice weather.
I’d eventually get sick of the torture. The duck hating on me and Cindy getting such a kick out of it was awful. I’d head home.
“F*ck that duck!” I’d yell over my shoulder. I hardly ever used that word as it was a big no no. But, it rhymed so great. I just had to.
“Language!” screamed Cindy at my back. She laughed hysterically. The duck honked.
The duck was mean. But, worst of all it was a bucket of slime. It shot poop out of itself all the time. On a warm day it really, really stunk over there.
One of Cindy’s jobs was to get out the hose and spray down half the yard after playing with Crackers. She had to do the driveway and the front stoop where she had fed it toast. Her father got home from work about 4 pm. If she had lost track of time and didn’t spray down the steps? Whoo! You could hear him yelling all the way to the top of Columbus Street.
He was pretty graphic about what he was going to do to that duck next time he came home to this kind of mess. He never threatened to actually eat the thing. But, he was very inventive in the many ways to kill a duck.
My mother would listen for a minute. “Oh, Jim and that duck.” she’d say as she closed all the windows at the front of the house.
You could threaten and even actually murder a duck on Columbus Street. We just didn’t want to smell it or hear it happening. Thus, the shutting of the windows.
Cindy overplayed her hand with me. She shouldn’t have let her duck torture me. She shouldn’t have gleefully watched it happen. The family was going on vacation in a few weeks. She was given the task of finding someone to care for the duck while they were away.
She came to my kitchen door. I opened it. She handed me a cookie. Okay…………cookie delivery. This is new and different. “So, we’re going on vacation in a few weeks.” she started with. “I need someone to take care of Cr……………” I slammed the door in her face. Then I opened the door a crack and threw the cookie back at her.
She tried again the next day and the next. I avoided her for a few days after that. Eventually I had to deal with the situation.
My mother had let her into the kitchen. I came down the stairs when my mother called me down. She and Cindy sat at the table with their hands folded. They both stared at me.
“No!” I said. “I am not taking care of that freak of an animal. It hates me. It hurts me every time I go near it. You think it’s funny. Why don’t you stay home from vacation? You can stay with us because I am not taking care of that God Darned Duck!” I yelled.
“Language!” my mother and Cindy said in unison.
“Sit down and listen to her.” my mother admonished.
I had taken the Lord God’s name in vain in front of my mother. I had lost any leverage I had with her. Oh, who am I kidding. I never had any.
Cindy looked me in the eye. She started in on her poor pitiful soul story.
“No one else will take care of Crackers. You’re not the only one that he’s mean to. He’s only nice to me. Because he’s mine. And we love each other. I’m sorry I laughed when he bit you that time.” she said.
“Weak! Lame! He bit me that time?” I screeched. “There has never been one time where he didn’t bite me! And you think it’s hilarious. Take your sob story someplace else.”
She switched gears.
“Okay. I love him. He loves me. He’s a nasty nasty creature. No one else will even go near him. My father says if you don’t take care of him he’s going to get rid of Crackers. I don’t know what that means. You know he could end up in the trash along with the old newspapers. My father is that mean. If you don’t take care of my duck I think he’ll end up dead. A ………..dead……………duck.” she exclaimed in a low desperate voice.
Then she hit me with the big shot.
She picked up the hair off of her forehead and took her finger and ran it over and over her eyebrow. She ran her finger over a year old scar under her eye brow and winced like it still hurt. We had been team mates at the same end of a ping pong table. I had gone for a spike and hit her with the edge of my paddle. She had bled like a pig and gotten a few stitches.
A tiny little scar under her eyebrow. A tiny little scar that no one would ever see in exchange for a week’s worth of taking care of a slimy stinky duck that hated me. Life is so not fair.
“I’ll try to make sure he’s still alive when you get home.” I said. “Now, take your eyebrow and get the hell out of my kitchen.”
She dropped a handwritten page of instructions on the kitchen table and walked out with a big smile on her face.
I picked up the instructions and gazed at them. I was mostly interested in the dates. I was so pissed at her right now I wasn’t going to be at the end of the driveway waving off their station wagon as was usual.
I was not going to feed toast to that duck. If he didn’t like bread plain he could lump it. I pointed at the instructions. I flapped them in my mother’s face. “She expects me to take that duck out of it’s cage twice a day for a half an hour and PLAY with it! Play with it! Mom, no kidding! That duck is homicidal!” I wailed.
“Well, that’s what we do for friends Darlene.” she replied.
“Well, Duck that!” I said as I swept up the stairs to my room and slammed the door.
Mom stood at the bottom of the stairs and yelled “You watch your language young lady!”
“Duck it! Duck it! Duck it!” I screeched and kicked my rolling desk chair across the wooden floor.
The family across the street left early the next Saturday morning. Their faces all shone with excitement. They were envisioning the beach. Sand, sun, salt water taffy, clam rolls, sun burns and Popsicles.
I was left with a paper route and a shitty duck.
I fed it. I watered it. I sat on the steps twice a day and read a book while it honked around the yard. Play with it? No, I’m not nuts. I kept an eye on it so it actually stayed in the yard. I sprayed down the poop. If it still stunk I kept spraying.
Getting it back into it’s cage twice a day was the problem. It saw play time was over. It saw me coming for it. Crackers would dive under a bush or behind some yard furniture. He made me work for it. I cupped him under the throat with one hand and held him under the belly with the other. I held him the way I’d seen Cindy hold him. If he struggled too much? I applied a little more pressure at the throat. I was in charge. He knew it. He hated me all the more. He let go all over my new white shorts.
I piled the bricks on top of the cage. We kept this up for one long hot summer week. Cindy was going to come home to a live duck. He could die on her watch. But, never never again. I’d cut her other eye open with a ping pong paddle if she ever tried to get me to do this again I thought.
My hands were purple with bruises. My arms were bruised and scraped. My ankles were a mess. My toes on my right foot were sore. Worst of all my mother said even bleach couldn’t get the duck crap out of my favorite white cut off shorts. What a fiasco.
Cindy and her family came home from the beach all brown and relaxed. She tried to pay me with money and salt water taffy for taking care of her duck. I took the taffy and told her to keep her money. I hadn’t done it for money. I had taken care of Crackers because I loved her. I still hated her duck. No, I didn’t want to hang out today. Let me have a few days to myself. I am that pissed. She looked at my bruised and cut ankles and feet and she went back home. She didn’t seem to find it amusing anymore.
A month later the Daddy of their house came home. There was some bellowing going on over there. I saw Cindy get the hose out and spray down the stairs and the driveway. The family piled into the car to go somewhere. It was dinner time. I’m thinking they were going to McDonalds. The father rolled down the driveway without her. She was going to be punished for duck slime on the steps.
He relented at the bottom of the driveway. She threw the hose over her shoulder and jumped into the back seat with the rest of her brothers and sister. I noticed she left the kitchen door open. Perhaps I would go over and fix that in a few minutes. After I finish this chapter I thought as I sat on my front steps. No need for her to take another ration of crap over an open kitchen door.
I heard the Good Humor truck start to descend Columbus Street. I tensed to go and grab some money. I decided against it. There was a half a gallon of new ice cream in the freezer. I went back to reading. The truck glided gently down the street at a sedate rate. No one was home to stop it. It continued past me with it’s music playing softly in the summer air.
It was almost at the bottom of Columbus Street when I looked up. I noticed Crackers was in the middle of the street waddling after the Good Humor truck. The truck put on it’s left blinker to go down Bolton Street. I watched the duck take a left after the truck.
I looked down at my white shorts. The duck shit stain was almost gone. I stared after the duck. No, I wasn’t going to be a hero today. That was a long way back to Cindy’s house carrying an irate duck. He would slime me good. I would just pretend I wasn’t seeing what I was seeing.
Oh, who was I kidding. She would come back from wherever they’d gone. The duck would be gone. She would realize she’d lost her pet because she had run off without bricking down the cage. She was eating french fries and licking the salt off of her fingers when her beloved pet disappeared forever.
How guilty would I feel while helping her search? How guilty would I look while tacking photos onto telephone poles. LOST DUCK! Please help find my duck. REWARD.
Oh, Duck It!
I got up and trotted down to the end of Columbus Street. I shielded my eyes from the early evening sun. No one was interested in ice cream on Bolton Street. It was almost at the curve where I would lose sight of it. The duck was still following.
I ran for it. The pavement was very hot on my bare feet. I silently kissed my white shorts goodbye. I came up behind Crackers and I scooped him. He was not pleased. He had been enjoying his evening waddle behind the musical truck. He tried to get his wings going. I tucked him under my arm. One hand at his throat and the other cradled his belly. He struggled. He remembered this particular grip. He stopped struggling. He just let go all down my shorts. It ran down my leg onto my right foot.
“Well, at least you’re good for something you little SHIT!” I yelled into where I thought his ear might be located. Who can tell with a duck?
I deposited him back into his cage. There was no water in his bowl. I added that. I piled the bricks on top. I said what the hell and sprayed myself off with the hose. I finished the stairs for Cindy. I looped the hose back up onto it’s holder. I shut the kitchen door and went home.
I never mentioned the Good Humor save to Cindy. I probably didn’t want to get teased. “You really secretly love him don’t you?” she would have said. Ugh.
Winter was coming. A duck in a cage in the back yard didn’t make sense with snow coming. The cage was moved to the basement. I’m sure Crackers made one hell of a racket all night in the basement getting used to that. A second night proved that this was not going to work for anyone. Duck included.
Cindy was very quiet. I inquired why? It seems the duck situation got out of control. Her Dad had a friend at work. The friend’s parents owned a farm. Cindy had accompanied Dad out to the farm. She had set her pet down next to a flock that looked just like him. He had happily joined his feathered friends at the pond. The barn looked nice. He would be happy there. She could visit him anytime she liked. Her father had promised to give her a ride out there. He even meant it she said.
And then she cried. And she cried. I let her.
I said “I’m sorry. That must have been really hard. I’m so sorry.”
She turned her grief and anger at me. “Oh sure! Like you’re sorry! You hated Crackers! You hated every minute of being with him. You hated taking care of him. He ruined your clothes and he made you bleed and he chased you and I laughed. I’m sorry I laughed. That wasn’t right. He hurt you and I laughed.” she wailed. She blubbered and her nose ran down her face.
“I am sorry.” I said. “I’m sad for you. I know you loved him.”
I ran out of things to say. There was nothing else to say. When someone is grieving? And you can’t find anything to say? I’m sorry will do it.
“At least you can go and visit him.” I said quietly. I didn’t know if she was done lashing out at me.
She cried so hard she started to hiccup. It was that awful crying without much sound.
“I can!” she cried. “I know that. But, Darlene! There were at least two dozen ducks. They all look the same! It’s not like he’s wearing a collar. It’s not like he’s tattooed! I wouldn’t even know which one he is.” she wailed. She wiped her nose on her sleeve. I didn’t have a tissue to offer her.
“Yes, that’s true. But, Cindy! He will know you! He loved you. Crackers will be the one that comes to you! ” I replied.
She looked at me with big wet blue eyes. I noticed the scar over her eye became red again when she cried. I put my arm around her and let her cry some more. I told her about the Good Humor Truck music and Crackers chasing it. I regaled her with visions of Wanted Posters. I teased her about how much the reward would have been. I told her about my favorite shorts in the trash when my mother had just shaken her head in defeat.
I was relieved to hear her finally laugh.